It's not just work and the moving that's taking its toll though, indeed not. As I think I might well have mentioned before the signs have been there that I was slipping back to the abyss, not looking after myself physically, hygienically nor mentally. But I have taken steps to remedy this and the visit to the lakes was the start of what I'm hoping is to looked back upon as a watershed in my life, the point where the scales tip in my favour for a change. I know now that the road I'm walking will never be easy and it's even harder knowing what I've lost, probably never to be regained ever again. But walk it I intend to do and already the signs are there that things are a changing. Outwardly my hair is more kept, I don't smell like a sewer and my weight is actually reducing. Inwardly I'm starting to feel more than just guilt and pain and I'm more positive about things in general. And the secrets to the small yet for me dramatic changes?
|The headless trick once again....|
We're staying here in the village, hopefully for sometime to come, as it's not a bad place and misfits like me are made most welcome. People here don't know me and the pain that my actions have left in there wake so I don't feel judged here. Also there's a decent pub, some beautiful walks, folk are friendly enough (some more so than others) and it's very Welsh, yes I think we'll stay here awhile and heal some more.
Till the next time, take care