I digress, sitting there clamping my steaming mug and reading your comments on yesterday's post....damn n blast you all.... I thought to myself perhaps the now is the time to start, no excuses, no grumbling, just get off my arse and go for a walk. After all a few easy miles in the fresh air ambled over a couple of hours should be fine, I'll even be able to get me head down before nights and regain some much needed rest.
So half an hour later I find myself stepping onto once familiar trails accompanied by the Bear....
Leaving the phone in the car seemed sensible as the dark sky and steadily building wind held the promise of rain upon it's whispered breath. It felt good to be 'out there' once more, though my gasping breath, laboured footfall and the Bears excited charging into the undergrowth negated any chance of seeing wildlife let alone being accepted by it, but in time that will come. A couple of miles of tortured walking and being soaked to the sink....side note, none of my old outdoor gear comes close to fitting my expanded frame anymore.....it was time to trudge wearily back to the car. But then it happened, clambering over a wet, moss covered fallen tree, I lost my footing and went down like the proverbial sack of spuds.....bugger! Leaving the phone in the car did not seem so sensible now! Gingerly dragging myself up I found myself quickly on my arse again, my right knee which has been twinging for some months now had decided to give up the ghost and refused to support my weight any longer, can't say that I blame it though!
With no other soul around apart from Bear, I was beginning to understand my foolishly unprepared rashness and regretted forgetting the lessons of trail walking I used to follow religiously even on the shortest of walks. With no option but to make my way back I had to calm myself and just focus. Casting around I was fortunate enough to find a stout branch to support myself on and gritting my teeth I began the return journey. Mind you better gritting my teeth than have them chewing all the junk food they've been forced to mash lately. Considering the brief time it took on the outward stretch the nearly five hours on the return was an eternity of pain but also relearning some harsh lessons of the trail. Fair play, Bear stayed with me all the way, never thinking of once using my predicament to run riot. There is not much else to tell cept the upshot was a rushed meal of leftovers and a quick wash was all the time I had once I got back to my abode before I had to limp out again and go to work. Which is where I sit on my brews writing this for you to shake your heads at as I force my way through the shift dosed up on painkilling pills and energy drinks.....not a good start to the campaign eh Julee?
Has this put a stop to my rebuilding myself? Well its put it on pause but it has in fact made me more determined to succeed. Taking the sensible move of getting myself checked out at the Docs will happen this week, I need to refrain from trying to replicate what I used to able to do and instead build myself up slowly taking my knackered bodies age and condition into consideration. Yes I need to relearn many lessons and take smaller steps...but I'll get there and if you can be bothered reading I'll be telling you about it here.
Till the next time, take care.