Now you may well ask to the reason that I am sharing this information with you? Or you might not but I am going to
Now bear with me as I am creeping slowly towards my point. My present position is 'lead shift engineer' which is the equivalent of option 3, which I have managed to do for about three years now without getting the sack. Only option 3 comes with a healthy pay rise but a whole load more
So we finally get there, "do you think your 'condition' may return....?" errr let me see now, mmmm ahhh you are referring to my depresion, of course the penny dropeth. Well unfortunately the answer to this is extremely simple, no my 'condition' will most definitely not return due to such circumstance because the bitch that is depression will always stalk me in the shadows of my life awaiting opportunity to rend my mind a fucking shambles once again!!! Everyday is a day managing it and trying to take a tiny step forward and not fall back into the abyss of mindless shit that the bitch draws my back to. For fucks sake how the hell am I supposed to answer such a question when I have no bloody idea of what is to come. I am trying my best and that will just have to do you stupid retarded fuckwits.
Of course this was not the way I responded verbally but just some of the thoughts that cascaded through my mind as I digested 'harmonisation'. Being the gentleman and completely sane person that I am my response was perhaps slightly more eloquent. "Since returning to work from my 'conditions' last return, I have come to understand more about my 'condition' through medical advice and I am certain that the structures and management techniques that I now employ, together with the improved medication and its positive impact upon my 'condition', that I am in a position to provide you with the service that is required. Thank you for your thoughtful consideration over my 'condition', live long and prosper." Ok so perhaps not the last line, though I was sorely tempted.
I guess what I am trying to say is not that the company does not have a clue but that there is so much to do because people fail to understand that depression is not something that can compartmentalised nor covered with a broad stroke of the brush. It affects each sufferer in so many different ways and is an absolute bastard to live with. For me it has torn my life apart, I have lost 'friends' and it has caused so much heartache that I had reached the stage of taking my life. If it was not for one little dog I am certain that I would not be here rambling on today. Of course I couldn't answer the questions fully and truthfully because I do not believe there is an answer, just time.
Speaking of time, thank you for yours in reading my words, till the next time take damn good care of yourselves,