Good day to you fellow scribers and peruses of the blogosphere. I must confess to have been a tad lax of late in both my scribbling on my own paltry offerings and the reading of others fine pages but, to tell truth I have been at a loss of late. Tis a hard thing to put into words when the 'dog' is circling in the shadows of your mind searching for an opportunity to bring the darkness back, dragging you down once more. Tis not that I've been totally incapacitated this time, just aware of the presence of her growling in my head, making me more thoughtful of late. Hazzy reflections of past mistakes and the guilt that they carry have been brought into sharp focus via certain events that have occurred lately and these memories have stabbed at my mind like Ahab riding the back of the great white whale.
But I have coped far better than before and have managed to function far better than times gone by when the dog growls. Perhaps tis because I read the signs better these days and so I am more able to function and understand what is happening in my head, perhaps it is because I have the love and support of a wonderful partner in my George or perhaps it is the medication and the happy pills keeping me more grounded. Either way this time the dog has not isolated my mind from the world but she has done enough to make me with draw within myself a tad.
I do not know why I feel the need to explain the times when the dog bares her fangs, perhaps it is just part of the healing process. Nor do I have the words that fully describe just what being accompanied by the dog is like. I just hope that on the occasions that I mention her that it helps others whom the dog haunts realise that they are not alone and that I will help you if I can.
Till the next time, take care,